A Day In The Life Of The Numy's

I am heavy hearted today. Paul's grandma, aunt, uncle & siblings came over yesterday. It was our first time meeting them and now the realization of having to give him back has officially set in. We have a few doctor appointments to go to with his grandma, and then it will be time to give him up. I guess I should be okay with this because after all, I am trained in this, right? How much can you prepare someone to love and care for a child and then just give them up? My guess is that it takes a lot of time to heal these wounds, and no amount of training will do.

And to make the day worse, My case worker notified me that we did not get chosen for the adoption placement we were up for. We were so excited about this placement and didn't even tell our closest friends and family (and that was HARD for me!) because we didn't want to 'jinx' it.

I know our 'forever family' is out there, I just want to meet them now. But I guess for now we will continue to live in the present and not focus on the future.

I know it sounds rude, but please do not ask us any questions about how long Paul will be with us or the potential adoption case. Please just pray. Thank you.