I am so thankful that I have faith, because if I didn't, I don't know where I'd be. Without faith, how does one know that things will be okay? When times get tough, what do those faithless have?

The faith that God will provide us a family is what gets me through each day. I KNOW that God has a plan and I am just waiting for it to unfold. This Saturday is National Adoption Day and although I am sad that we do not get to feel the joy of adoption, I am excited that ONE DAY we will be celebrating along side other adoptive families.

Our journey is a crazy one and each day brings new joy, excitement and fear. We never know what is going to happen next but still have our faith that whatever it is, will be God's will.

Ever have a day where you just feel like you're on a roller coaster? I have. Actually, everyday is one of those for a foster parent. One second I am happy to be the proud foster mom of this incredible baby, then the next...fear of what might happen down the road. Ugh! I hate to make all my blog posts about depressing, annoying, Debbie-downer stuff, but unfortunately, it's our life right now.

I even lost it with a co-worker today. He asked me how the baby was and I just broke down. I felt bad, but I really don't get to vent much about details because we are so cautious about what we share. Poor guy really got to hear some crazy stuff! As if it's not enough to not know what the future of your family looks like, we are living in fear, physical fear of our foster babies parents.

So I apologize for the negative-Nancy attitude lately. Please pray that we can all be happy and just soak up all the baby time that we have.

Every time I need a pick-me-up, I can just look HERE :)

This is a hard time of year for me. This is the time when Michigan becomes a better place to be. The grass is green, the water is nice, people are starting to go outside...and we are beginning the hibernation process. We dread the high temps and they look forward to them, welcoming them with open arms. Kind of how us Arizonans are in November :) This is my 5th summer in the desert and every year I dread it. Funny, kind of how Michiganders are in November :) Even though I dread it, I am still thankful to be here!

The little guy is doing good. I am pretty sure he has colic, something I thought was a myth. How cow was I wrong! I am now a firm believer that it exists and that it is straight from the devil! How a baby can cry so much is a mystery to me. But I still wouldn't trade this time with him for anything in the world! He has taught us patience, love, how to live on little sleep...oh, and did I mention patience? :) He is the light of our lives right now and we pray each day for his future, whatever that may be.

Matt is out of school for the summer! And I am back to work! What a crazy week we had. I went back to work on Thursday and his last day was Friday. It's amazing how God has orchestrated this time in our lives so perfectly. Lots of times we see God's hand in things AFTER the fact. But in this season, with the baby, we can see it in the present...and it's amazing. This journey to parenthood is the complete opposite of easy or fun, but it's cool to see God's hand in it every step of the way.